Hear my yawp

here is proof
of my indifference
of my humble insolence

let it be clear
the accusation holds
that these are just
hollow words

but know the fact
that birds can fly
only because of
hollow bones

so let me submit
that i do not care
that i do not wish
to be concerned

if i even try
or take a step
it is to move away
from being governed

there is no way
no secret route
that leads to me
looking up
from the things that would
soak up my mind
and let these thoughts
free up

so let me affirm
my final words
let them be
written in bytes
that i will not bend
it will not end
as sure as i survive

Note to my former self

for sure
you will fall
for the first time
you will falter
flounder
but forge on

because movement
is the only thing
that will matter

you will give it
your all
your each
your every molecule
to help it live
to make it strong
with the iron in your blood
and in your bones

for sure
you will fail
feel loss
feel hurt
feel pain

at meeting
expectations
at fulfilling
dreams and demands

because the weight
of words
of promises
of wants and wishes
will prove too much
for your fragile
foolish young heart

for sure
you will cry
watching the feeling
an emotion
succumb to time

you will harden your heart
toughen the walls
sever and seal away
this tiny part
of a broken heart

and promise never again
never again to give in
and if you do
never again to give up

for sure
you will live
despite believing
the end of this
is the end of you

thinking nothing
no one
no other heart
can ever feel
or begin to heal
those old scars
of first love

for sure
you will find
a second hope
somewhere hiding
and you will doubt

but that is enough
that doubt will fade
those walls will crumble
some other will find
that key you hid away

and for sure
you will fall
for the first time
once again
only to rinse
repeat
resurrect
the same cycle

hoping this time
the wheels will keep turning
the hearts will keep beating
and you will keep feeling
the same way
as you did the first time