Life's looking up.

I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I've got a life that's too short to live,

So I'm gonna go on,

And have a good time.

I'm gonna wake up every morning,

Find some green leaves to burn.

Coz you never know how this game will play out.

And I don't wanna feel,

Like I missed my turn.

I'll be standing on the corner,

Watching the world go by.

I'll reach out for one of those teary eyes.

And tell them don't worry,

There's no need to cry.

I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I've got a life that's too short to live,

So I'm gonna go on,

And have a good time.

There's a million different reasons,

For a million different crimes.

But to spend my years writing dreary songs.

Seems like a waste,

Of words and rhyme.

So I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I'm spending all my money,

On cheap kicks and smooth wine.

I've got a life that's too short to live,

I'm gonna go on,

And have a good time.

Words.

My voice has left me,
My words are long gone.
It seems like yesterday,
But what I write now, seems wrong.

I used to sing praises,
And write about the good.
Notice what was missed,
Understand what was overlooked.
My heart seems weaker,
Every day that it beats.
My head seems heavier,
With every line that it thinks.

Broken glass would inspire,
Remind me of once complete things.
Each moment would aspire,
To write of greater beings.
My rhyme is forgotten,
What I write I do not know.
Something is missing inside,
And my words refuse to show.

My voice has left me,
My words are long gone.
It seems like yesterday,
But what I write now, seems wrong.

I could dream of splendid days,
Made of beautiful things.
I could create a harmony,
Yet now I cannot sing.
The days now drag on,
Those times was what I lived for.
But I’m dreading tomorrow today,
There’s nothing new to be found.

I want my inspiration,
I want my dedication.
I want all that’s gone,
I want all that I’ve never known.
To feel the joy of something new,
These days the moments are few.
I struggle with words for now,
Where is my mind lost?

Someone give me my voice,

Fill up this silent noise.

Give me comfort,

Let me write again.

Pointless Rambles.

Please don't stop me from saying this,
I need you now than I ever did.
The words keep flowing and you're need,
In my life for this poetry.

I can't hear what you say to me,
I wish to live a little comfortably.
Don't be sad for this day,
Some day tomorrow will be eternity.

My prose keeps falling and breaking down,
The smile has turned to a twisted frown.
Toil in this world for a shaded pride,
Laughing and flying through a sordid ride.
Just sleep,
It's all that's needed.
Just live,
It's all about loving.

The silence breaks we're moving on,
The wound it heals like the crack of dawn.
A brighter light shines again,
What we were has faded to memory.

So think of us when you sleep tonight,
Love that stood through every fight.
A fork in the road and a choice to make,
A harder way for the journey's sake.
Just sleep,
It's all that's needed.
Just live,
It's all about loving.

Outdated Apologies.

I think I might,

Lose my mind,

If I hear your voice again.

The way you sound,

Teary eyed,

When I'm faking confidence.

You made your choice,

To leave me when,
The anger filled your voice that day.

You know I meant,

I love you still,

I lied and said, just go away.

And now I'm empty.

Your lipstick smeared,

From tears I fed,

Your make up was all washed away.

In my sadness still,

I remembered the smile,

Of you and me in a better day.

In the night I held you,

Close in hope,

That you would never run away.

I shoulda stayed back,

And heard you out,

Instead I kept my stupid ways.

And now I'm empty.

Now I'm empty.

I think I might,

Lose my mind,

If I hear your voice today.

Just to hear,

You break in tears,

Knowing I made you this way.

But I'm empty.

I'm empty.

Lovesick fool.

I wish I was a better man to you.

I wish I was a better boy for you.
I wish I wasn't, such a fool.
But you picked me up,
And you tied me down,
And took me back to school.

If you can turn me round,
Away from my disposition,
Of wasting time and lying down,
You can become my new religion.

We're perfectly aligned,
Universally refined.
And a part of me,
Makes it feel like,
I have never been declined.
That's why I...

I wish I was a better man to you.
I wish I was a better boy for you.
I wish I wasn't, such a fool.
But you picked me up,
And you tied me down,
And took me back to school.

They think that you're wasting time,
They think that's enough moonshine.
But you stuck through a year,
And now it seems all clear.
That you, are meant to be mine.

Oh we're correctly designed,
Eternally entwined.
And when you,
Stand with me,
I feel a little more refined.
That's why I...

I wish I was a better man to you.
I wish I was a better boy for you.
I wish I wasn't, such a fool.
But you picked me up,
And you tied me down,
And took me back to school.
You make me cool.

The Gilded City.

I see the sign on the highway,
Leading to the city of dread.
All the way down,
To the new south road.
Where old mills they lie condemned.

I travel to the southern shoreline,
Where a million people lay.
Walking down,
The queen's necklace.
Where once children used to play.

When I wonder,
Where is the pity.
And I find a man,
Who can tell.
I know no one,
Knows this city.
Like the old man,
Drinking whisky next to hell.

I see all the ants are running,
As the light shines from the east.
Moving along,
The city's veins.
As they see the belly of the beast.

All the fighters keep on dancing,
They hear the tolling of the bell.
When the clock strikes six,
They will run back home.
Thinking all that is, is what is well.

When I wonder,
Where is the pity.
And I find a man,
Who can tell.
I know no one,
Knows this city.
Like the old man,
Drinking whisky next to hell.

The devils look upon their kingdom,
As they sell the town and all within.
Peeking out,
From their shiny cars.
Bought from selling all types of sin.

As the young babe opens his eyes,
He sees a dead and gilded tree.
So he wonders,
And he dreams about it.
Is beauty here as fake as we see.

When I wonder,
Where is the pity.
And I find a man,
Who can tell.
I know no one,
Knows this city.
Like the old man,
Drinking whisky next to hell.

A King. A Fool.

Come to this sight,
Don't ride alone.
Suffer the demons,
On the cold and guarded throne.

Come to this life,
Your only hope.
Try to escape,
This downward deadly slope.

Creating, destroying,
All your life,
Saw you divided by your pride.
Sold and provided,
All your life,
You are invited by your dark side.

Come in this night,
The day grows dark.
Carry your burden,
And I'll ease your weary heart.

Come where I am,
My spirit floats.
Serenity is here,
A slowly sailing boat.

Creating, destroying,
All your life,
Saw you divided by your pride.
Sold and provided,
All your life,
You are invited by your dark side.

Questions

I just lie here,
And close my weary eyes.
The smoke fills my mind,
And I gain a secret high.

The wheels of fortune,
Creak and spin again.
The merchant beckons,
Selling cures of unknown pains.

Where do I go?
When I've lost the way.
Why should I fight?
What do I have to say?
How will I win?
Where does it begin?
Who was the man who died?

Power and vision,
Slowly cloud my sight.
Building up to something,
Following my inner light.

The mind is swaying,
My feet can touch the sky.
Smoke is so much stronger,
Forever takes me high.

Where do I go?
When I've lost the way.
Why should I fight?
What do I have to say?
How will I win?
Where does it begin?
Who was the man who died?

Protected from within,
Defended by my lies.
I've found life,
In my mind so close by.
Let me show you serenity,
Living, changing,
Where life goes by.

Better Things.

On what whims,
The world spins,
Who dies;
And who lives.

How evil love can be,
If someone holds me,
But I can't feel it.
Forever the feelings faked.

But, I'm sure of,
You're ability,
To love me truly.
Which makes me,
My own fallacy.

Just hold me,
Embrace me,
Don't say that,
You love me.
Coz one day,
We will walk away and say,
Things are better ending this way.

I need to know,
Why we're here,
Standing;
In this moment.

Just a weak reflection,
Of what this is,
And what it could be.

But its my life,
And my ability,
To love her truly.
Which makes you,
A twisted enemy.

Just hold me,
Embrace me,
Don't say that,
You love me.
Coz one day,
We will walk away and say,
Things are better ending this way.

Travelogue of Enlightenment.

Merchant of fate,

In search of truth.

Selling, trading,

The wisdom fruit.

Where does he come from,

His travel route.

Curses flying,

His search is moot.

It was meant for you,

I wish you knew.

What he searches,

It was meant for you.

Forbidden fruit and,

The fountain of youth,

It is meant for you.

The light is shining,

At the tunnels end.

No one sees it,

Coz its around a bend.

Stumbling backwards,

We fear the friend.

Keep on forward,

You will start a trend.

It was meant for you,

I wish you knew.

What he searches,

It was meant for you.

Forbidden fruit and,

The fountain of youth,

It is meant for you.

The path he's chosen,

Leads to just one place.

Darkness closing,

Around a saddened face.

Where he came from,

Was lost in grace.

It's a singular effort,

It was not a race.

It was meant for you,

Forbidden fruit and,

The fountain of youth,

It is meant for you.

P.S.> This is my 100th original song/poem. A 100 works in and I still feel I haven't said anything. Maybe I should go about getting these in print... Lets see...

If I was a Scientist.

I was gonna grow up and be a scientist.

Working away in my secret lab.

Not a question that I would miss.

Make Einstein seem like a drab.

Finding cures for unknown ills,

Creating potions of myth.

Elixir of life and light sabers,

Not a Jedi, I like the Sith.

I would end world hunger,

And make the dolphins speak.

If only I had the brains,

To be a scientist.

The future would be mine,

I could disprove every priest.

Money and fame are secondary now,

If only I was a scientist.

I will build me some robot warriors,

Laser guns, AI and all.

I will try teach them about life,

And how we grew so tall.

And I just hope that they will,

Realize what life's worth.

In the very least I hope that,

They won't go destroy the Earth.

I would end world hunger,

And make the dolphins speak.

If only I had the brains,

To be a scientist.

The future would be mine,

I could disprove every priest.

Money and fame are secondary now,

If only I was a scientist.

Create the Matrix like the machines did,

Reality will be what I feel.

Bullet-Dodge motion and flying subs,

And machines that auto-heal.

It might seem to you,

That I'm a bit of a freak.

But you just don't get it,

This song is for the geek.

The future would be mine,

I could disprove every priest.

Money and fame are secondary now,

If only I was a scientist.

Never Afraid

Only one way to go,
Life will always let me know,

Everything goes the way I say,
Nothing goes against my way.

Nothing can ever take me down,
Nothing will ever, break me now.

The world keeps spinning,
Around my head.
I keep on winning,
Never afraid.
Never afraid.

All I do,
Will end in victory,
Everything I want,
It waits for me.

Keep it going,
Keep it strong,
Everyone will sing,
It's my victory song.

Nothing can ever take me down,
Nothing will ever, break me now.

The world keeps spinning,
Around my head.
I keep on winning,
Never afraid.
Never afraid.


P.S.> This is my first ever song with a complete positive feel to it. I wrote it for a good friend of mine, a small guitar genius who made the tune that I'm listening to right now. He made the tune and passed it on to me, and the lyrics sort of flowed. Wrote the lyrics in a few minutes and the tune that he created somehow got the words out with ease.

War is taking over.

I heard her voice today,

It came from nowhere.

In the form of radio static,

I'll recognize it anywhere.

She asked for a little picture,

To remember my face.

Reading out from a molded scripture,

No hope, no saving grace.

How can you bear,

To live in the world today,

It's falling down and war is taking over.

Digging your grave,

On someone else's say,

What will you do if no one's left to hold her.

Run away, run away,

Run away while you're still alive.

Run away, run away,

You know we can't survive.

Children ran in all directions,

Bombs falling from paper planes.

Won't be long before its all real,

Can't hide behind all your fame.

Soldier follows mindless orders,

Medals upon coffin and grave.

Giving life for the highest honor,

Do you remember just one name?

How can you bear,

To live in the world today,

It's falling down and war is taking over.

Searching for,

A shining ray of hope,

Find some love or just a little flower.

Run away, run away,

Run away while you're still alive.

Run away, run away,

You know we can't survive.

To: You.

I thought that I,

Lost my mind.

When you told me,

What you knew I would find.

And now I know,

So I can think again.

I decided then,

That's it's time,

And this has reached it's end.

So, Thank you,

For ending this.

Hurting me,

So I wont miss.

The pain you shared,

For love I dared,

Defy, my intelligence.

How could I,

Not see the lie.

Blinded by my heart,

And your arrogance.

Now as I go,

Just tell me,

Were you really,

What you said you were to me.

So, Thank you,

For ending this.

Hurting me,

So I wont miss.

The pain you shared,

For love I dared,

Defy, my intelligence.

Now its too late,

You've crossed my sword..

I'm leaving you to dwell,

On your hollow words.

Either way,

Just let it be,

You're dead to me.

I won't be the one to help you,

I'm not gonna be there to hold you,

I won't be there when you go,

I'll be the one to say, I told you so.

Thank you.

(Slightly ripped from a song thats stuck in my head. But the parts that are, can't be said any better than this. Goes to someone who used to be a part of my life. A big part. No longer.)

My Own Terms.

To everyone who tells me that I wont make it. That I'm being stubborn, arrogant, stupid. Who tell me to be realistic and stop dreaming. Who tell me I can't live this way. It's my life, I'll live it on my own terms and make what I want of it. Either support me from the sidelines or get the hell out of my way.

Living, risking, but never scared,

One step closer to the edge.

Nothing changes in my dreams,
I can go on, it may seem.

Iron will is never gone,
I am right, you think I’m wrong.

It’s not a story you can tell,
Taking chances, might as well.

Hold me while I’m still alive,
Just don’t hold me back,
When I touch the sky.

Let me die on my own terms,
Let me live and let me learn.
I’m not ready to sacrifice,
Somewhere in this world, is my life.

Looking forward I wont rewind,
Someday soon I will cross that line.

If freedom makes a fool of me,
Let me try and hope I see.

I will promise you one thing,
I will live up to my dreams.

Nothing ventured nothing gained,
Don’t wanna live for just each day.

Hold me while I’m still alive,
Just don’t hold me back,
When I touch the sky.

Let me die on my own terms,
Let me live and let me learn.
I’m not ready to sacrifice,
Somewhere in this world, is my life.

Remind me.

I walk the streets at night,

Till I get lost.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

With an empty pocket,

And my guitar.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

I like making faces,

In mirrored walls.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

I like walking backwards,

Till I fall.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

The Love that we had. The love that we lost. 

The love I held sacred, then you paused.

The more that I hold is more that I cry.

I don't wanna love... Just survive.

I like TV music,

And radio talk.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

I like climbing over,

Empty walls.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

I like unheard songs,

And drinking in bars.

If it never reminds me,

Of you at all.

The Love that we had. The love that we lost. 

The love I held sacred, then you paused.

The more that I hold is more that I cry.

I don't wanna love... Just survive.

Bound and broken,

I have to learn,

Some more.

Lost and shaken,

Like never before.

The Love that we had. The love that we lost. 

The love I held sacred, then you paused.

The more that I hold is more that I cry.

I don't wanna love... Just survive.

I like writing songs,

And breaking guitars.

Coz it helps me forget,

Who you were.

I like losing myself,

In the dark.

Coz it helps me forget,

Who you were.

Psychosis.

It’s a different kind of,
Motivation.

A darkened kind of,
Emotion.

A wrong but fitting,
Solution.

An answer cause to,
Evolution.

I keeps me crying for,
Some peace within.
I makes me find,
A doubt in everything.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis,
Which I can’t repel.

Feeding on the wrong,
Information.

Dancing in my head a new,
Recreation.

Looking for a reason for a,
Revolution.

Or is this just some kind of,
Natural selection.

I keeps me crying for,
Some peace within.
I makes me find,
A doubt in everything.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis,
Which I can’t repel.

I think that I should start,
My own religion.

It seems the only sane,
Explanation.

No one thinks I’m crazy,
If I call it devotion.

I’ll forever me remembered,
For my contribution.

My life will be,
The front page.
Defying death,
Create an age.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis.
Which I won’t repel,
So they treat me well.

The World Will Move On.

Hypocrites fill the world,

Speaking out,

For what they haven't heard.

Try and make,

Some sense of it all.

Struggling with the door,

The sign says pull,

But yet we push some more.

Holding on,

To ideals that we lost.

The world will move on,

Yet we just hold on,

To things we should,

Have left long ago.

The world will move on,

Long after you are gone,

We will not change,

The way it spins you know.

The privilege of our birth,

Laughing out,

As we burn the earth,

Maybe we were,

Wrong from the start.

Common man he screams,

Waking up,

From one of sordid dreams,

Did he choose this life,

Or did we make it up.

The world will move on,

Yet we just hold on,

To things we should,

Have left long ago.

The world will move on,

Long after you are gone,

We will not change,

The way it spins you know.

Broken dreams and scars,

Stealing suns,

And reaching for the stars,

Is it any wonder,

How it fell apart.

Castles in the sky,

Falling down,

And you wonder why,

How could it,

Have all gone so wrong.

The world will move on,

Yet we just hold on,

To things we should,

Have left long ago.

The world will move on,

Long after you are gone,

We will not change,

The way it spins you know.

Fame.

Now I'm hearing voices,

And there's no one around.

The world is getting empty,
And the grass has gone brown.

Maybe I'm just lonely,

Or sad that no one's heard.

I think thats the problem,

No one knows me in the world.

I need to make my way,

Tell the world my name.

Need to make my voice heard,

Reach out for the fame.

I will cross the hurdles,

And climb the steep incline.

And I will be remembered,

Long after my time.

The winds are getting weaker,

And breeze hardly breathes.

And the sun keeps getting darker,

There's no life in the leaves.

My world gets partly cloudy,

My judgement seems so wrong.

Now I sit and wonder,

The meaning of this song.

I need to make my way,

Tell the world my name.

Need to make my voice heard,

Reach out for the fame.

I will cross the hurdles,

And climb the steep incline.

And I will be remembered,

Long after my time.

Night.

Oh I sat in silence,

The night so quiet.

Isn't it funny,

How it chooses to riot.

It plays with your head,

And toys with your mind.

You search in the dark,

And there's nothing to find.

Oh don't you give me,

Any more of what I had.

I thought I was happy,

What makes me so sad.

Its the world that is broken,

I'm the only one right.

Why am I so empty,

Like the darkness in night.

Oh, I sit here alone,

With my knees 'round my head.

If you could see me,

You'd think I was dead.

But all I was hoping,

Was that I'd make a choice.

Hear myself speak,

Over all of this noise.

Oh don't you give me,

Any more of what I had.

I thought I was happy,

What makes me so sad.

Its the world that is broken,

I'm the only one right.

Why am I so empty,

Like the darkness in night.

What was it I smoked,

And the drinks that I had.

Or maybe it was both,

That is driving me mad.

How I wish for the silence,

For the noises to die.

So I can lay my head down,

Just rest some and cry.

Oh don't you give me,

Any more of what I had.

I thought I was happy,

What makes me so sad.

Its the world that is broken,

I'm the only one right.

Why am I so empty,

Like the darkness in night.