Wandering home

i could be a traveler
taking weary roads
where no one goes

i could
be a hermit
hiding away
in a dusty hole

waiting
for you to call me
bring me in
and remind me

all roads
lead to home
to your arms
when we're alone

all roads
lead to home
take me in
on your own

i could be a sailor
on the roughest seas
that no one dares go

i could
be an explorer
getting lost
on the horizon

searching
for the familiar
in an alien
unknown shore

but all roads
lead to home
in your arms
when we're alone

all roads
lead to home
take me in
make me strong

wherever i go
i will find you
whatever i do
my compass
points to you

every journey
that i take
will bring me
right there next to you
because

all roads
lead to home
to your arms
where we can be alone

Coniferous monstrous

A forest clouds
the path with trees
their reaching branches
kill every breeze.

The leaves here shake
with whispers of fear.
The monsters are awake
their whimpers are near.

Long shadows are cast
blocking each sign.
Vines crowd the path
though they seem benign.

The journey becomes
a trek through the dark.
No hint that it's day.
No rays, no spark.

The canopy hides
birds and beasts of prey.
The hunter has become
the hunted today.

Trunks grown old
sprout faces of pain,
one sight of the nightmare,
and you'll never sleep again.

But worry not traveller
you need no chance to rest,
this haunted patch of soil
will put you to the test.

Though the path seems lost
and fate seems grim
trust the way forward.
Trust your mind and it's whims.

Though the forest seems thick,
with sunlight blocked away,
you're sure to find the light
you'll surely find a way.

This forest of dreams
with its threatening eyes
can't lay a finger on you
won't take you by surprise.

At the other side of this
lies the road green and wide.
Don't give in to the darkness
that much you must decide.

Wander beyond the forest
and you'll find the way you lost.
You'll turn around and wonder
how you never paid the cost.

Of stepping through nightmares
and fears given form.
Of walking beyond madness.
Of braving the turgid storm.

By trekking through this forest
of hallucinating air.
Can you defeat what is in it
and save everything you care.

Insatiable

I want to swallow you
with my eyes sometimes.
I want to drink
your every word.

I want to consume
the very air you exhale,
I want to gorge
on all your sounds.

Your movements strike
a pining in me,
at the sight of you
My gut growls.

I'm famished without
that scent of yours,
I'm parched for
a stolen glance.

I want to inhale
all these thoughts of you.
I want to choke
on your mellow sighs.

I want to devour
every memory of you.
I want to feast on you
All my life.

Club 27

Now here i am
Past the gates of 27,
When the idols i adored
Were already in heaven.
No this isn't a rant
About failing to die young.
The Jims and the Kurts
Had had their share of fun.
Me? I'm still reaching
For my piece of immortality.
Not at the barrel of a gun
Or the urge of gravity.

So here i stand
At the gates of 27,
With a life i adore
Bless the devil in heaven.
Past childhood joy
And grown-up sins I've come.
With the scars of others
Beyond the lessons of some.
And I'll still be reaching
Till the soul has its rhythm,
Sure as the shattering of white
When light hits a prism.

So now i step
Past the gates of 27,
To my chance in the world
My kingdom of heaven.
But a question still persists,
Beyond Jimi's tragic fame,
If he hadn't this way died
Would the fervour be the same?
Maybe death is resurrection,
As science fiction suggests,
But too bitter a truth
For any of us to digest.

But I promised this wouldn't be
An ode to death at 27.
The most cliche topic to pick
Talking of those in heaven.
So let me instead wrap up
With a happy-tasting thought,
At least we've survived
All the troubles life has wrought.
So let's forget the madness
And put old ghosts to rest,
Because 26 is over
And the rest of my life comes next.

USG Ishimura

the vision aboard a haunted ship
screaming eyes and quivering lips

the needle dangles, iris flares
a moment's danger
a thrust, a glare

there is no hope here for men
there is no quarter but limbs being drawn
flee my friend, flee my friend
for if you stay you will be gone

a silence hangs in the stars tonight
no one can see the sordid sights

the crimson floats in blackened space
of many kinds
of many a race

there is no hope here for men
there is no mercy in these skies
flee my friend, flee my friend
anyone who stays surely dies

this wood and steel is no one's slave
this hull too dark to ever be saved

the ghosts that rule these vacuum halls
cannot be seen
and do not behave

there is no hope here for you
there is no more time to spare
fear the end, fear the end
the captain requests your despair

Nostradamus

i've seen the end
of this crazy play
let me pretend
till you go away

there's no happy song
or a lullaby here
that wouldn't sound wrong
in this moment of fear

so listen up
i know times are tough
but we're strong enough
to pull through
to wherever it is
we're headed now
rolling off the screen
misguided somehow
to the end i'm sure i've seen

though i know
our chance seems slim
and we hope
a second wind
can power our sails
and take us in
to the place you love
and the people who
fit you like a glove
and know your every whim

so don't you look
back at me
when the doors they close
on this memory
and a stupid prose

about the end i've seen
explains the way i've been
and the way the the story goes
until you go away from me
and the night that had me saved
closes in on me

you have to let me go
even you must know
the things we want
and the things we'll get
are seldom too hard
to differentiate

so we hesitate
hoping for a perfect time
waiting in the same line
as everyone else

though i know
it makes no sense
why you and i
choose to cry
and still pretend
when we're standing here
fighting fear
and the end i think i've seen
the end i think i've seen

Cocoon

Fly away
My dear butterfly
This not the way
For you to keep on trying

I can see
The stormy winds
Come to kill us
And to stop you from flying

We can't stand
In the face of this
With fragile wings
And a will to fight the tempest

Give it up
Or the final beat
Of your flight
Will be cause of my madness

So leave me here
Go to your home
To the shell
That will keep you protected

For if you choose
To fly through this
For a hope
For a foolish kind of sadness

I will fight
The winds of change
Or I will die
But not for lack of trying

Though my
Weakened wings
And their tiring beat
May slow or still from fighting

Just let me see
As I'm crashing down
That somehow
You lived to keep on flying

And I will rest
Having known
You were there
Even as my breath was dying

Rendezvous

Meet me at
The same new place
Let me show you
The world from somewhere else

We can safely share
Our stories in the silence
No need to hide
Won't partake in their violence

Meet me at
The edge of the earth
I will pile up the wood
And build our little hearth

A place to warm
And rest your tired feet
Come the morning
Our roads will not repeat

Meet me at
Any place that isn't here
Somewhere to lie together
Where there's no quarter for fear

It need not be
Heaven or some paradise
It may not even be
Something seen by our eyes

So meet me at
The turn to the long road
I'll wait with a cigarette
As it's embers grow old

Leave behind your bags
Throw your conscience to the wind
Let me show you
Everywhere we could have been

Smoke and lights

You are just a dream,

Only a shade of what you seem.

There is a twinkle in your eyes,

But it's shrouded by your lies.

How does it feel?

To always make believe.

How does it feel?

To break what could have been.

I see a shadow of your intentions,

But the smoke brings complications.

You believe you know me,

In truth you can't see clearly.

How does it feel?
To always make believe.
How does it feel?
To break what could have been.

Don't waste your time on me,
I am not the man you see.

I'm just as broken as you are,
Another liar and a farce.

I know how it feels.
To always make believe.
I know how it feels.
To break what could have been.

So tell me how does it feel?

Discoveries.

I knew we'd lost it,
For a long time.

Maybe that's why,
I feel fine.

I'm sure there's nothing wrong,
With me.

I feel as happy,
As I could be.

I found my life,
But lost my love.
I don't care what I've become.
I found my life,
But lost my love.
I feel it's only just begun.

There's no emotions,
Where I come from.

Just illusions,
And a sad song.

I think they have a name,
For this feeling.

But I forget,
Because it's fleeting.

I found my life,
But lost my love.
I don't care what I've become.
I found my life,
But lost my love.
I feel it's only just begun.

Ashes high.

I left your lightless home,
In the dark of the night.

Holding on to a silhouette,
Wondering what is right.

A voice grew from my heart,
Painfully clear.

Tells me there's no need to cry,
This is no time for fear.

We were going to ride into the sunset,
But now the world's gone dark.
We were aiming for happily ever after,
Seems like we missed the mark.
Now what is left of us,
Will turn to dust,
And I'll love again, from the start.

Time was on our side,
That's what we were told.

I believed every lie,
In the promises of old.

Now the time has passed us by,
There's silence here.

In this darker shade of night,
I find a lack of fear.

We were going to ride into the sunset,
But now the world's gone dark.
We were aiming for happily ever after,
Seems like we missed the mark.
Now what is left of us,
Will turn to dust,
And I'll love again, from the start.

Don't look around,
For a fake shade of blue sky.

Don't hold your breath,
The breeze won't bring me by.

Just hold back you tears,
Now it's my turn to cry.

What is left of us,
Will turn to dust,
Starting with my heart.
What is left of us,
Will turn to dust,
And I'll live again, from the start.

Postcard from Paradise.

Send me a postcard from paradise,
When you get there today.
You're far away from this rotten world,
It seems to have lost its way.

I know where you've gone,
They grow tulips in the sky.
They wear white wings with halos,
They have no reasons to cry.

Here the land is burnt and scarred,
From the fists of man and his iron bars.
The water has turned a holy red,
From fighting peace and endless wars.

We plant roses in the rain,
And hope that they grow.
But we'll cut them for the thorns,
As if we don't know.

So send me that letter,
That postcard from paradise.
Show me something better,
That I may smile with these eyes.

I know where you are,
There's rainbows everyday.
A cure for every wound,
And no pain in what you say.

Here a child cries,
For black gold we all weep.
In the face of our maker,
Our silence we will keep.

Every now and then,
Someone tries to fight.
But one man cannot stand,
Against all the world's might.

So send me that letter,
That postcard from paradise.
Show me something better,
That I may smile with these eyes.

Give me some hope,
Even if they be empty words.
I'll dream that I may join you,
In your perfect little world.

Pointless Rambles.

Please don't stop me from saying this,
I need you now than I ever did.
The words keep flowing and you're need,
In my life for this poetry.

I can't hear what you say to me,
I wish to live a little comfortably.
Don't be sad for this day,
Some day tomorrow will be eternity.

My prose keeps falling and breaking down,
The smile has turned to a twisted frown.
Toil in this world for a shaded pride,
Laughing and flying through a sordid ride.
Just sleep,
It's all that's needed.
Just live,
It's all about loving.

The silence breaks we're moving on,
The wound it heals like the crack of dawn.
A brighter light shines again,
What we were has faded to memory.

So think of us when you sleep tonight,
Love that stood through every fight.
A fork in the road and a choice to make,
A harder way for the journey's sake.
Just sleep,
It's all that's needed.
Just live,
It's all about loving.

Red Carnations and Gin.

I love you now,

It's all that should matter.

Every moment together,

We'll remember somehow.

You know there's something about us,

That no one can see.

And though we may wish it,

We soon will not be.

So I'll raise a toast to our fighting,

And a drink to our laughs.

I'll cheer for our crying,

And I'll dream of our start.

So let me touch a glass,

To your peace of mind.

After me.

You're stronger now,

You will know that so soon.

And soon you'll meet someone,

Who sends you over the moon.

Like you made me feel,

Everyday I held to you.

That's when you will know,

This was the right thing to do.

So I'll raise a toast to our fighting,

And a drink to our laughs.

I'll cheer for our crying,

And I'll dream of our start.

So let me touch a glass,

To your peace of mind.

After me.

It's been years too long,

You've moved on much better.

And now I feel sad,

When we could have had each other.

The greatest regrets,

Are the last to come straight.

When I let you go,

It was my greatest mistake.

But now you're so happy,

And I feel the same.

Though we're not together,

I'm glad that you're content and safe.

So I'll raise a toast to our fighting,

And a drink to our laughs.

I'll cheer for our crying,

And I'll dream of our start.

So let me touch a glass,

To your peace of mind.

After me.

I am free.

It's a crazy thing to see,
The people who only agree.
The shepherds nod is all that they need,
Following is just their breed.

It's such a fleeting thing to me,
This life and all that I can see.
The confusion and all the greed.
Discounted lives to live indeed.

Obey the law,
Learn to drive.
Close your jaw,
Support the hive.
Act normal,
Get a family.
Now repeat after me,
I am free, Oh I am free.

There's people thinking,
In a different stream.
They feel they can leave,
And build a dream.

But the when the herd follows,
They will understand.
The shepherd came with them,
To their greener land.

Obey the law,
Learn to drive.
Close your jaw,
Support the hive.
Act normal,
Get a family.
Now repeat after me,
I am free, Oh I am free.

It's such a weary illusion,
All that we receive.
I have free will today,
That's what I'd like to believe.

Am I just another sheep within,
The strings are bound tightly.
Some choose to listen,
Unlike me, I try to break free.

Obey the law,
Learn to drive.
Close your jaw,
Support the hive.
Follow fashion,
Act normal,
Get a family.
Now repeat after me,
I am free, Oh I am free.

I'll grow another world just for me,
Live by myself and feel free.
A place to visit where peace can be,
I'm already there and here I don't bleed.

Now repeat after me,
I am free, Oh I am free.
I am free, Oh I am free.

The Book of Life

I turn back to the pages,
Of my youth and wonder.
Look back on the days,
That have gone by.

Let a ready man read,
While the book is in my hand.
Let him take a stand.

I wish to see,
My younger days.
Spent in rain,
And sunshine rays.
When the melody was sweet,
Like the smell of my old street.

Reminded me of days of lost wonder,
The book of my life,
And the writings of leisure.
The movie plays in the land of the blind.
Now pause and please rewind.

Give me back my naiveté,
I wish to learn again.
My ship is drifting,
Without a sail.

Let the child inside me live,
While I can make a stand.
Lend me a hand.

I want to learn,
From my mistakes.
Learn to give,
And when to take.
When to rise up above,
From the sound on that playground.

Reminded me of days of lost wonder,
The book of my life,
And the writings of leisure.
The movie plays in the land of the blind.
Now pause and please rewind.

Remember days of paper ships,
Like dreams that float and flip.
A time of boundless love,
Beyond the sky up above.
Chasing cars down the street,
And happy sounds of growing feet.

Reminded me of days of lost wonder,
The book of my life,
And the writings of leisure.
The movie plays in the land of the blind.
Now pause and please rewind.

Questions

I just lie here,
And close my weary eyes.
The smoke fills my mind,
And I gain a secret high.

The wheels of fortune,
Creak and spin again.
The merchant beckons,
Selling cures of unknown pains.

Where do I go?
When I've lost the way.
Why should I fight?
What do I have to say?
How will I win?
Where does it begin?
Who was the man who died?

Power and vision,
Slowly cloud my sight.
Building up to something,
Following my inner light.

The mind is swaying,
My feet can touch the sky.
Smoke is so much stronger,
Forever takes me high.

Where do I go?
When I've lost the way.
Why should I fight?
What do I have to say?
How will I win?
Where does it begin?
Who was the man who died?

Protected from within,
Defended by my lies.
I've found life,
In my mind so close by.
Let me show you serenity,
Living, changing,
Where life goes by.

New year, New start.

The sun has faded,

It indicated.

The day will end,

And sun will rise,

For another dawn.

Feeling jaded,

Alienated.

Moving back and forth,

Looking for,

A greener lawn.

I don't know,

What I will find.

Leave what I was,

Behind.

Search for,

Peace of mind.

Leave it all,

Behind.

Hold a prayer,

In my favor.

I'm going to,

A lonely place,

Just to find myself again.

Wave goodbye now,

Flying high now.

The rising day,

Will light my way,

In this heavy falling rain.

I don't know,

What I will find.

Leave what I was,

Behind.

Search for,

Peace of mind.

Leave it all,

Behind.

Close the book now,

Take a look now.

Everything falls in place,

You can see it on my face.

I will be famous,

Victorious.

Standing on ashen will of,

The people who wished me ill.

I don't know,

What I will find.

Leave what I was,

Behind.

Search for,

Peace of mind.

Leave it all,

Behind.

I've made it there now,

I have no fear now.

I can turn around,

And look at them,

Show them what they could've been.

Around the World.

Take my heart,
Around the world.

See who's my friend,
And who is right.

Write my story,
Word for word.

See what you get,
From your life.

Its almost like being free,
All the pain that I believe.
Its almost like a relief,
To see this time,
And its mine.

Like to sit down,

And share some words.

Know what it's like,

What we have heard.

Try to fill some emptiness,

With nothing more.

Break away from loneliness,

Walk right out another door.

Its almost like being free,
All the pain that I believe.
Its almost like a relief,
To see this time,
And its mine.

All that I wanted,

All that I thought would mean something.

All that we had and,

All that I saw in my dream.

Its almost like being free,
All the pain that I believe.
Its almost like a relief,
To see this time,
And its mine.

Here's what I found.

I may not wear the right clothes,

My socks don't match,

And I don't know what is what.

If this lasts forever,

I'll be the last man,

Who's first to get out.

I think maybe its all for the best,

I worked so hard, I could use a little rest.

Been thinking its all written down,

Looked a little deeper and see what I found.

I'm just here right now,

Coz I find it hard,

To get ahead somehow.

And I don't wanna love,

Coz love keeps me down,

I'll never lose if I don't I know how.

I think maybe its all for the best,

I worked so hard, I could use a little rest.

Been thinking its all written down,

Looked a little deeper and see what I found.

Why would I want to move on,

When it's just so easy,

To sit and hold on.

Maybe you're right,

Life will pass me by.

But could I ever fail,

If I never try.

If this was the sea,

I'd be that one wave,

Thats just trying to break free.

I really do hope its all for the best,

Why does everything seem like a little test.

I think I have it all written down,

I lost a few pages, let me read what I've found.