Hear my yawp

here is proof
of my indifference
of my humble insolence

let it be clear
the accusation holds
that these are just
hollow words

but know the fact
that birds can fly
only because of
hollow bones

so let me submit
that i do not care
that i do not wish
to be concerned

if i even try
or take a step
it is to move away
from being governed

there is no way
no secret route
that leads to me
looking up
from the things that would
soak up my mind
and let these thoughts
free up

so let me affirm
my final words
let them be
written in bytes
that i will not bend
it will not end
as sure as i survive

War is taking over.

I heard her voice today,

It came from nowhere.

In the form of radio static,

I'll recognize it anywhere.

She asked for a little picture,

To remember my face.

Reading out from a molded scripture,

No hope, no saving grace.

How can you bear,

To live in the world today,

It's falling down and war is taking over.

Digging your grave,

On someone else's say,

What will you do if no one's left to hold her.

Run away, run away,

Run away while you're still alive.

Run away, run away,

You know we can't survive.

Children ran in all directions,

Bombs falling from paper planes.

Won't be long before its all real,

Can't hide behind all your fame.

Soldier follows mindless orders,

Medals upon coffin and grave.

Giving life for the highest honor,

Do you remember just one name?

How can you bear,

To live in the world today,

It's falling down and war is taking over.

Searching for,

A shining ray of hope,

Find some love or just a little flower.

Run away, run away,

Run away while you're still alive.

Run away, run away,

You know we can't survive.

To: You.

I thought that I,

Lost my mind.

When you told me,

What you knew I would find.

And now I know,

So I can think again.

I decided then,

That's it's time,

And this has reached it's end.

So, Thank you,

For ending this.

Hurting me,

So I wont miss.

The pain you shared,

For love I dared,

Defy, my intelligence.

How could I,

Not see the lie.

Blinded by my heart,

And your arrogance.

Now as I go,

Just tell me,

Were you really,

What you said you were to me.

So, Thank you,

For ending this.

Hurting me,

So I wont miss.

The pain you shared,

For love I dared,

Defy, my intelligence.

Now its too late,

You've crossed my sword..

I'm leaving you to dwell,

On your hollow words.

Either way,

Just let it be,

You're dead to me.

I won't be the one to help you,

I'm not gonna be there to hold you,

I won't be there when you go,

I'll be the one to say, I told you so.

Thank you.

(Slightly ripped from a song thats stuck in my head. But the parts that are, can't be said any better than this. Goes to someone who used to be a part of my life. A big part. No longer.)

Lucifer/My Creator.

Steal a confession,

Out of my head.

I really don't know,

But it's been said.

You sleep forever,

Once you die.

Is there no one left,

Who will cry, cry.

Cry.

Should I go blind.

Die.

With nothing left behind.

Destroy.

What was born.

Reply.

To my creator, filled with scorn.

The time has come,

For our retribution.

Steal a chance for,

A final confession.

Hoping to find,

Your redemption.

Left to burn with,

Your final destruction.

Cry.

For all thats gone.

Die.

Just to be reborn.

Destroy.

With a glance.

Reply.

My creator. Give me a chance.

The tension is rising,

Its just overhelming.

As I sin again,

To ease the pain,

I will live on forever,

In arms of Lucifer.

When I die, die, die.

Cry.

But not for me.

Die.

I'm breaking free.

Destroy.

The memory today.

Reply.

What do I say? What do I say?

Psychosis.

It’s a different kind of,
Motivation.

A darkened kind of,
Emotion.

A wrong but fitting,
Solution.

An answer cause to,
Evolution.

I keeps me crying for,
Some peace within.
I makes me find,
A doubt in everything.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis,
Which I can’t repel.

Feeding on the wrong,
Information.

Dancing in my head a new,
Recreation.

Looking for a reason for a,
Revolution.

Or is this just some kind of,
Natural selection.

I keeps me crying for,
Some peace within.
I makes me find,
A doubt in everything.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis,
Which I can’t repel.

I think that I should start,
My own religion.

It seems the only sane,
Explanation.

No one thinks I’m crazy,
If I call it devotion.

I’ll forever me remembered,
For my contribution.

My life will be,
The front page.
Defying death,
Create an age.
Demons in my head,
Inside my psychosis.
Which I won’t repel,
So they treat me well.

In The Name of...

First came love,

And words of god.

Then we tried,

To live our lives.

And we found,

That it was lost.

So we warred,

In his holy names.

Somehow to help,

With all our pain.

Looking out,

For personal gains.

Now this world,

Don't mean a thing.

There's just one word,

That I believe.

Now there's nothing,

Left to show.

Just one word,

No one,

Seems to know.

Then we searched,

In foreign lands.

For strength,

In fallen hands.

Said we're building,

Them a life.

We're saving them,

From strife.

Now its slipping,

Through our fists.

Yet we fight,

Those who resist.

Now this world,

Don't mean a thing.

There's just one word,

That I believe.

Now there's nothing,

Left to show.

Just one word,

No one,

Seems to know.

We say we're winning,

In this war.

Yet the ending,

Seems so far.

Why do our leaders,

Stand so tall.

Innocent men,

Around him fall.

Now this world,

Don't mean a thing.

There's just one word,

That I believe.

Now there's nothing,

Left to show.

Just one word,

No one,

Seems to know.

You.

You saw me lost,

Pathetic and helpless,

Just another possibility.

You tried to pick me up,

Just to throw me down again.

I knew the world,

Was coming down,

As I stood and found,

You looking over me.

You,
What did I mean to you,

That you used me,

And threw away.

You,

What would I do to you,

If I get that chance,

Once again.

Maybe I was insecure,

Not knowing what,

A little unsure.

You saw it in my eyes,

Maybe just a slight.

Try and remake me,

Or just to take me,

Led me on,

And got me lost again.

You,
What did I mean to you,

That you used me,

And threw away.

You,

What would I do to you,

If I get that chance,

Once again.

Then, I had you in my headlights.

I thought I'll kill you now,

For what you did to me.

But then I hit reverse,

Turned around and drove away.

Just to watch you,

Dissapear in the rearview,

Before it crossed my mind again.

You,
What did I mean to you,

That you used me,

And threw away.

You,

What would I do to you,

If I get that chance,

Once again.

Revolution.

Breaking free of what we,

Always learned.

Try to rise from what you,

Once were.

Blow the lid of from this,

Blasted world

Kill the problem and try to,

Live and learn.

Break the system,

Turn it on itself.

Be the solution,

Take it on your self.

Revolution,

Won't start by itself.

Revolution.

Take a stand for what you,

Believe in.

Make your world from what you've,
Been given.

Try to make some sense of,
Those around you.

Be the change so they will,

Follow you.

Break the system,

Turn it on itself.

Be the solution,

Take it on your self.

Revolution,

Won't start by itself.

Revolution.

Anymore.

Saw you speaking,

Out from behind.

A better way to confess,

As I hit rewind.

I look into the ashes,

We left behind.

And Im holding to the memory,

Before I go blind.

And its good,

Im not.

In love.

With you.

And its good.

That Im not.

Insane.

Anymore.

Now Im searching for the answer,

In the lost time.

As Im keeping down the questions,

Fearing whats inside.

I keep hoping that it just gets better,

And I see its getting worse.

I keep holding, longer and stronger,

As Im losing my mind.

And its good,

Im not.

In love.

With you.

And its good.

That Im not.

Insane.

Anymore.

I am a God.

Born to life,

Surrounded by death.

Brought to a world,

Drowning deep in regret.

Cast in a game,

Where no one can win.

Brought up with pain,

And the peace within.

I am not this mortal soul,

I am but higher.

I don't sway on borrowed winds,

I am the wind itself.

I am more than heavens rod,

I am a God.

Made to regret,

The choice of my life.

And I stand to forget,

My conscience, my pride.

I will stand upon the land,

That you laid to waste.

I will rise more than a man,

And bring it up again.

I am not this mortal soul,

I am but higher.

I don't sway on borrowed winds,

I am the wind itself.

I am more than heavens rod,

I am a God.

I am the one hope of life,

One chance to save.

One hope to give.

And change these regrets.

I am not this mortal soul,

I am but higher.

I don't sway on borrowed winds,

I am the wind itself.

I am more than heavens rod,

I am a God.

P.S.> This song goes out to a saviour. Someone who helps and rises up from a downfall of civilization. May it be anyone. For many right now, its Obama. Though he's not a god, and this reference can be taken wrongly, the song sort of fits.

Too much, Too young, Too fast.

Living life,

Like its just one day.

Trying to find,

Or we just make our way.

Let us loose,

Upon this world.

The greatest ones,

Who you've never heard.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We were living large,

We had a blast.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We should've known,

It would never last.

Taking this life,

Into our own hands.

Bringing it down,

And no one else can stand.

Getting rich,

And dying young.

Who gives a fuck,

Coz we're having fun.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We were living large,

We had a blast.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We should've known,

It would never last.

We're living it up,

Living it large,

Living too much,

How could it last.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We were living large,

We had a blast.

Too much, too young, too fast,

We should've known,

It would never last.

P.S.> A happy song, A rare song, A heavy song. Live it up like a rock god and don't care what comes next.

Our Legacy.

In a world of war and crime,
All our innocence gets left behind,

There people and places,
And all of their lies.

Time and the chaos kept aside,
We are running out of time.

Think of what we're leaving,
Is it worth leaving behind.

Its to sad to stay alive.

When its gone,
Lost in this time,
The peace and all that divine,
We're drowning,
Lost in this divide,
This legacy, it is not mine.
I won't be alive.

There's peace and there's rest,
The sorrow in bloodline,

Everything fades at the end of time,
And we wonder who is mine.

Let the children look to our time,
Let them learn from this line,

I only hope they're alive,
Even if they aren't mine.

As long as they're alive.

When its gone,
Lost in this time,
The peace and all that's divine,
We're drowning,
Lost in this divide.
This legacy, it is not mine.
I won't be alive.




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Now playing: THE DOORS - The End
via FoxyTunes

Let it out.

Don't you want to be at peace,
Don't you feel the disease.

Just wait for it all to end,
Or scream and shout,
Go against the trend.

Let it out,
Let it out my children,
Just let it out,
Let it out,
Before you let it grow.

Let it out,
Let it out my children,
Just let it out,
Let it out,
And watch the river flow.

Going crazy, going insane,
Living on a different plane.

All the anger growing inside,
Always being pushed aside.

Let it out,
Let it out my children,
Just let it out,
Let it out,
And watch it go.

Let it out,
Let it out my children,
Just let it out,
Let it out,
And watch the river flow.

My Last Requiem.

I love the feeling when it falls apart,
I bring up just to watch if fall.

Watch the world go up in flame.
Maybe chaos is my call.

Could this be the end of me,
And all the things I know.

Maybe this is too easy,
There are better ways to go.

Let me go now,
Just let me die,
You know how good it feels?
This is the end,
Its my goodbye,
This is my last requiem.

How can you say I let down,
I cant believe I let you know,

Now I see my defense let you in,
And now you are under my skin.

With your final words,
Does it end?
Or do I wait for it to begin.

Let me go now,
Just let me die,
You know how good it feels?
This is the end,
Its my goodbye,
This is my last requiem.

Screaming in my head,
Its all the devils,
All the things I don't want to see.

In your aching eyes,
I understand the lies,
And all the grief within.

Will you let me go,
And let me die,
Do you have to win?

Let me go now,
Just let me die,
You know how good it feels?
This is the end,
Its my goodbye,
This is my last requiem.



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Now playing: Audioslave - Show Me How To Live
via FoxyTunes

Voices in your head.

There is more than you believe,
There's more than you can see.

All things that you ignore,
Everyday you fall a bit more.

This life can never defeat you,
There's more in life than you ever knew.

I can lead you to the saving light,
You only have to trust that I'm right.


You think I'm a little insane,
But I'm the one winning this game.

The inner voices in your head,
Feeding on your fear.
Try and listen to my voice instead,
I can keep your mind here.

The world keeps spinning in your head,
Filling you body with mortal dread.

I can see you losing your mind,
Even yourself you cant find.

There's a road leading far away,
All I can do is lead you today.

I can see you smiling back at me,
Maybe you can win back your sanity.


You think I'm a little insane,
But I'm the one winning this game.

The inner voices in your head,
Feeding on your fear.
Try and listen to my voice instead,
I can keep your mind here.



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Now playing: 3 Doors Down - Give it to Me
via FoxyTunes

Second thoughts.

Never thought you'd hurt me like this,
Never thought you'd kill me slowly.

Never thought it was you I'll miss,
Never thought I would drown quickly.

Never broke a promise that I made,
Never will you leave me, you said,

Never thought we'd lose that fire,
Never thought you'd hurt me either.

I keep thinking its a dream,
I keep waiting to wake up,
But it will never be like its been,
How could you leave me like this?

So I'll find you now,
Till I make it the same,
And I'll meet you somehow,
Its the only way to stop the pain.

Never felt we were too good to be true,
Never felt this fall around me,

Never hid anything from you,
Never knew you didn't see me.

Never been stronger than right now,
Never felt so weak somehow,

Never did you let me know,
Never thought you let me go.

I keep thinking its a dream,
I keep waiting to wake up,
But it will never be like its been,
How could you leave me like this?

So I'll find you now,
Till I make it the same,
And I'll meet you somehow,
Its the only way to stop the pain.

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Now playing: 3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time
via FoxyTunes

No Escape.

Save me, and ill save you too,
You saw me and just then you knew,
Everything was wrong inside me,
You just thought let it be.

Please someone save me from me,
I'm my own worst enemy,
Ill end this now, end this pain,
Ill end it before it drives me insane.

Help me up before I fall again,
Help me somehow, escape this pain,
I'm giving up, my strength begins to wane,
I don't think that I can stay sane.

I cant keep going this way,
Even when I'm gone this will stay,
Eating me from slowly from inside,
I can't wait till the end of this ride.

Kill me now, I cant hurt no more,
My mind has gone numb, my body sore,
Going through this darkness, I'm alive but alone,
A part of me is fighting this, a part of me is gone.

Help me up before I fall again,
Help me somehow, escape this pain,
I'm giving up, my strength begins to wane,
I don't think that I can stay sane.

What is broken I cannot remake,
All is lost, there is no escape.

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Now playing: THE DOORS - Break On Through (To The Other Side)
via FoxyTunes

Freedom will make you a fool.

Hey you, trying to rule the world,
Trying to enforce your will,
Trying to make only your voice heard,
Freedom of thought you wish to kill.

We can do without your kind,
We can live without your race,
I'm sure than no one will mind,
The world will be a better place.

The world doesn't need a single man,
It doesn't need one person to rule,
Everyone wishes that they somehow can,
But freedom will make you a fool.

No one needs the battles that you fought,
No one wants your games to play,
We can survive with our own thought,
We don't need you to show the way.

Leave us alone we can do without,
All of you who think you own the world,
Your system tries to block us out,
But all our voices are still heard.

The world doesn't need a single man,
It doesn't need one person to rule,
Everyone wishes that they somehow can,
But freedom will make you a fool.



Edit: Independence day special post. An out and out scream against all those single minded megalomaniacs who want to dictate their terms and enforce their will on the people of the their countries and the world. We don't need politicians. Freedom will make a fool of them all.

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Now playing: Radiohead - 15 Step
via FoxyTunes

We can win it all.

I'd stand and pick a side,
But there's now way I can win.

I'll keep my world inside,
Watch the rest of it spin.

I cant fight in all that remains,
I lost hope for the war.

I'm keeping my safe distance,
Stand and stare from afar.

And I hope to see you, baby,
Save me I'm going crazy,
Have face all the outside,
When I want to run and hide.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.

I can fool the world in my act,
But I can't fool myself.

What I can see is the only fact,
Everything else is unsafe.

I hope that you can do this,
Stand with me till the end.

Help somehow complete this,
To our will make them bend.

And I hope to see you, baby,
Save me I'm going crazy,
Have face all the outside,
When I want to run and hide.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.

I know you will answer to my calls,
Stand with me when its over,
We stand together when everyone falls,
Just hold me closer.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.


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Now playing: Coldplay - Death And All His Friends
via FoxyTunes

El Diablo.

The devil he smiles with an angel's face,
He tries to bring me down with all his grace.

I think its just a matter of love and hate,
Not a matter of race or faith.

I'm on my way I'm headed down,
Down there I'll wear a golden crown.

The devil he awaits my cruel end,
I might just break before I bend.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.

Every day I await my call,
Wait for the day I finally fall.

Longing for freedom from these binds,
A way to escape these saner minds.

My only hope is in cold death,
I keep waiting for my final breath.

I think about it and say it loud,
Longing to get away from this lonely crowd.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.

My final deliverance is not in faith,
It's not in love and neither in hate,
It's in knowing the truth and making peace,
Losing my body, keeping my soul in piece.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.



Edit: A dark, dark, dark song. A number of people would not like it coz of the message it conveys. Of anti-religion and the freedom of death, from the bonds of mortality. Its an amazing concept and I hope to write more about it later so as to partly explain this song as well.
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Now playing: nirvana - in bloom
via FoxyTunes