The world needs to slow down.

I cleared my dues, put out the fires,
And set out on an empty road.

I kept the feeling, pulled the wires,
I kept on going without a load.

And so I came to gaze upon these times,
I wondered what went wrong.

How did we spend all our lives,
Why does everyone keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

As I journeyed along, I saw a tree,
It gave fruit and a shade to sleep,

It moved with life, but was never free,
Even it's fruits it wouldn't keep.

That was when I realized the simple truth,
I realized what went wrong.

In this freedom of our only youth,
We never stand, we keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

All of us never have a moment to lose,
We never take time to see a star.

Keeping time is our usual excuse,
We never look at life from afar.

There's more to life than constant motion,
We fail to appreciate each moment.

We keep getting lost in all this commotion,
And we keep waiting for the next event.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.



Edit: This song basically explains my message to the world. I believe in taking life at my own pace, while people around me keep rushing to places and appointments. Somehow I wanted to make this song to put life into perspective for them, all those people who rush in life and keep saying its so tough.
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Now playing: Nirvana - Lounge Act
via FoxyTunes

Breaking Up.

I though I lost you somewhere,
But you were never mine to lose.

I search for you everywhere,
For you its not that hard to choose.

I wanted to be all you need,
But you never wanted anything at all.

Now I know even I can bleed,
You didn't even flinch watching me fall.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

Everything I did, I did for you,
And you didn't even care.

I kept acting like a fool,
In a love like this it all seemed fair.

Now, you say you have to go,
And it tears me apart.

How can you ever know,
All the pain in my heart.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

You go on, somehow I'll heal,
I hope that I survive this,
One day I'm sure, I can again feel,
But I can still taste our last kiss.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.


Edit: I wrote this song in a bad mood actually. Sort of needed to make a break up song, to express my feelings if someone important in my life left me. Though I'm not much of a person to fall in love, I think I got the feelings that a number of other people would like to express into this song.
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Now playing: Incubus - Out From Under
via FoxyTunes

A Losing Fight / The Inner Evil.

They all say there's good in me,
Its the demons inside they fail to see.

I'm afraid they'll all get out,
But its all the things I cant live without.

Someday they'll all be free,
I don't know then, what will be left of me.

I mere shadow a living shell,
I drown slowly in my inner hell.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.

I keep losing this inner fight,
I stand tall as I cower in fright.

They tell me that I'm winning,
But all I wanna do is keep running.

The inner fight is what I cant escape,
What is now broken I cannot remake.

Everything fades, I'm down on my knee,
The inner evil is finally free.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.

I keep hoping that you stand by side,
I just wait for the turning of the tide.

I hope and pray that I may be wrong,
But they've been in me all along.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.



I'm currently unable to convincingly name this song. I hold it very close to my heart since at a number of levels it explains the manifestation of my greatest fears. This song is essentially an explanation of my state of mind, my inner psychosis.

If anyone can help me name this, I'm open to suggestions.


P.S.> This song marks a landmark 10th original song written by me. Now if only someone would help me make these into proper music, then I can proudly say I have enough songs for a decent length album.

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Now playing: Poets Of The Fall - Fragile
via FoxyTunes

Walking Alone.

When I first came, to this forest,
My anger was my pain.

As I went on, to a good rest,
My anger was to wane.

I grew heavy, and my bindings,
They pulled down to sleep.

As I went on, all my findings,
They kept me on my feet.

(Let me go)
I cant find rest or my mind,
(Let me go)
There so much still to find.
(Leave me be)
I cant turn back, must move ahead,
(I rush in)
Where you fear to tread.

And this world was, full of people,
But no one lends a hand,

I search for, and I'm so feeble,
Cant find my feet to stand.

I can see the clearing ahead,
As I move on through the trees.

I reach there, to rest my head,
Rest my soul in the cool breeze.

(Let me go)
I cant find rest or my mind,
(Let me go)
There so much still to find.
(Leave me be)
I cant turn back, must move ahead,
(I rush in)
Where you fear to tread.

I found freedom in this last mile,
Finally my soul is free.
My face breaks in a large smile,
I can sleep now, let me be.

(Let me go)
I cant find rest or my mind,
(Let me go)
There so much still to find.
(Leave me be)
I cant turn back, must move ahead,
(I rush in)
Where you fear to tread.



Edit: This song is basically about the journey of life. Actually taking the journey alone, and somehow finishing it and the sense of freedom and relief you feel once you come out of a dark forest into open air, after walking all alone on that path.

This just in: The song fits the beat of Out of Exile by Audioslave. Just need to add one beat at the second stanza. (In the brackets during the chorus is sung by back-up vocals)
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Now playing: Incubus - Drive
via FoxyTunes

El Diablo.

The devil he smiles with an angel's face,
He tries to bring me down with all his grace.

I think its just a matter of love and hate,
Not a matter of race or faith.

I'm on my way I'm headed down,
Down there I'll wear a golden crown.

The devil he awaits my cruel end,
I might just break before I bend.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.

Every day I await my call,
Wait for the day I finally fall.

Longing for freedom from these binds,
A way to escape these saner minds.

My only hope is in cold death,
I keep waiting for my final breath.

I think about it and say it loud,
Longing to get away from this lonely crowd.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.

My final deliverance is not in faith,
It's not in love and neither in hate,
It's in knowing the truth and making peace,
Losing my body, keeping my soul in piece.

Hell is just a new start, a new beginning,
There's just no point in running,
I'm headed there with a crazy grin,
In the end, Death will win.



Edit: A dark, dark, dark song. A number of people would not like it coz of the message it conveys. Of anti-religion and the freedom of death, from the bonds of mortality. Its an amazing concept and I hope to write more about it later so as to partly explain this song as well.
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Now playing: nirvana - in bloom
via FoxyTunes

Time.

I saw you there
In disrepair,
So blissful,
Yet so unaware,
I cant help but wonder,
Are you really there.

I try to see,
What you can see,
And deep down,
I wish to be,
Everything we needed,
And could never be.

Time has a way to fill up all my pain,
Time is all my loss and all my gain,
Time makes me think about, the love we had,
Time calls the good things, and all the bad.

I think about it every day and night,
I try to fight it with all my might,
Think about that time we shared,
Didn't think if anyone cared,

My what a good way, and good memories,
I keep remembering all our, little stories,
Oh, what would I do, just to hold you now,
I keep thinking, what, where, when and how.

Time has a way to fill up all my pain,
Time is my every loss and all my gain,
Time makes me think about, the love we had,
Time calls the good things, and all the bad.

All I wish for see is you again,
All I want is to take, all your pain,
I feel sorry for all the things I said,
For all my mistakes I think I've paid.

I'll find a way to make all this right,
I wont lose you, not without a fight,
Lost you once and I felt the pain,
Everyday I grow a little insane.

Time has a way to fill up all my pain,
Time is all my loss and all my gain,
Time makes me think about, the love we had,
Time calls the good things, and all the bad.


Edit: This is one LONG song. Its about how time is one of the best healers, and all the different stages in a relationship from the start to the bitter end, and all the memories linked with it which somehow time helps forget.
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Now playing: Yellowcard - Sure Thing Falling
via FoxyTunes

Chaos.

At the end of the earth,
The silence after the storm,
I wish to have another birth,
So I can make my own form.

Building life from its dying scratch,
Making it worth another life
Bringing out another batch,
Hoping this one steers clear of strife.

(We need chaos)
Somewhere just to lose our head
(We need chaos)
Someplace we can run and hide.
(We need chaos)
After everyone is dead.
(We need chaos)
Just sit back, enjoy the ride.

All we need is the ultimate end,
Someway to start it all again,
Somehow to make us all amend,
To payback all the quiet pain.

Everything we've said and done,
All the mess upon our plate,
All the wars we've lost and won,
We need to start with a clean slate.

(We need chaos)
Somewhere just to lose our head
(We need chaos)
Someplace we can run and hide.
(We need chaos)
After everyone is dead.
(We need chaos)
Just sit back, enjoy the ride.

The only way is to start anew,
To stop our foolishness, restart,
The way the first flower grew,
Until it was torn apart.

(We need chaos)
Somewhere just to lose our head
(We need chaos)
Someplace we can run and hide.
(We need chaos)
After everyone is dead.
(We need chaos)
Just sit back, enjoy the ride.




This is a very dark song even for me. Never expected myself to be able to put this out in lyrics, but I can almost imagine someone screeching this out on stage with heavy distortion sounds.

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Now playing: Audioslave - Be Yourself
via FoxyTunes

The Last Regret.

You are my love, you are my sin,
You are everything I had always been.

I cant help but wonder what went wrong,
I keep dying, you move along.

I keep my love inside this cage,
I build it up, this new visage.

The feeling people will never know,
How is it so easy, just to let go.

You kept me anchored to my sanity,
You are my whirlpool, my gravity.
Now you are gone and I have nothing left,
Nothing except my last regret.

I look back on the things I'd done,
I had always lost when I thought I'd won.

I won the small battles, but I lost this war,
I turned around to look, now you've gone to far.

These crazy thoughts spinning in my head,
All the things I wish I'd never said.

You kept me anchored to my sanity,
You are my whirlpool, my gravity.
Now you are gone and I have nothing left,
Nothing except my last regret.

You said you'd never leave,
Now I'm all alone.
I cant believe I hurt you so,
You held me tight, but i let go.

You kept me anchored to my sanity,
You are my whirlpool, my gravity.
Now you are gone and I have nothing left,
Nothing except my last regret.

I see the end, that finish line,
I'm hanging on to a lonely thread,
I'm happy that once you were mine,
But deep inside I wish to be dead.

You kept me anchored to my sanity,
You are my whirlpool, my gravity.
Now you are gone and I have nothing left,
Nothing except my last regret.



Edit: A song of things gone sour, and all the mistakes which one wishes one had never made in a relationship. How everyone leaves a relationship with a certain feeling of regret which gives rise to the question of "what if?". Its about the sense of loss and the feeling of futility when we try to think of the things that went wrong and how its all still fixable.

Its over, get over it.
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Now playing: Yellowcard - City of Devils
via FoxyTunes