Moving on.

I used to think of running away,
But someone somehow always made me stay,

I never thought I ever wanted to go,
Now that I'm sure, I should let you know,

I cant handle the problems of this town,
I have to leave, I'm headed down,

They cant keep me tied here for long,
By the time they start to look, ill be gone.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.

So I'll head out and walk alone,
Find my way on a lonely road.

Keeping the things people said in mind,
Leaving my old life behind.

Moving on into the night,
Holding on to the dying light.

Won't ever turn back and reminisce,
There's very little that I will miss.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.

Life keeps moving on,
Another chapter must start,
Ill be only a memory before long,
I won't even cry as we move apart.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.



Edit: Its an escape song, if you haven't got that already. It explains why I wish to leave this town and all its people behind. But exactly "why" but "what" is the question it sort of answers. I would be better off out of here.
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Now playing: Creed - My Own Prison(Acoustic)
via FoxyTunes

Help me.

Someone take me away from here,
Before I set my life on fire.

I love the strings that keep me up one part,
Keeping me from tearing apart.

Someone hear my searing call,
Pick me up just when I fall.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.

It costs me all I hold dear,
Drowning in my own dark fear.

I keep holding, onto things long gone,
Someone keep me on my way alone.

I don't spin around that fire anymore,
It helped me out so many times before.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.


Edit: This is my first 3 line stanza song. I hope it turns out to be a small but slow song. The song pretty much explains my aimlessness in life and my cries for help.
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Now playing: Audioslave - Revelations
via FoxyTunes

Best time we had.

All that I see,
Keeps spinning all around.

Everything in me,
Looks for higher ground.

I somehow lost sight,
Of where I belong.

And where was the light,
When things went wrong.

Whisper my song,
Try to sing along,

I'm running out of time,
For the best time I had,
you said you were all mine,
Its the best time we've had.

I see angels cry,
See them fall from the dark sky.

I scream aloud.
As the sun drowns behind a cloud,

But we all move along,
As though nothings wrong,

Everyone suddenly stands,
Cover your ears with your hands.

Coz heaven's dead,
It's just like I said,

I hear the devils song,
I step up and sing along.

I'm running out of time,
For the best time I had,
You said you were all mine,
Its the best time we've had.


Edit: This song is a sort of reminiscing of some of the good times with a certain someone no longer a part of my life. Its one of those songs that takes me back to some good and bad memories.

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Now playing: Audioslave - Moth
via FoxyTunes

All you need is Love.

Love is such an interesting concept. Its amazing how much people are ready to sacrifice and give up in the name of one psychological concept. I can't imagine the feeling of being in love, I'm at a certain level incapable of this feeling for another individual(not counting family in this equation). The feeling of complete emotional dependence, trust, complexity, belief and faith in a singular individual is impossible for me. I could never manage to be so supremely out of my mind so as to devote my whole sole and body to another individual.

Call me a kid, but I really doubt my ability to fall in love. Fine I am able to feel love for my family and my immediate kin, but thats a different kind of love. I am personally unable to feel that poetic love that so many people around me keep harping about. Somehow, inspite of all the proof in front of my eyes, I find myself doubting the existence of such a feeling of utter surrender.

For me, Love is a passing feeling. From where I stand, I see two types of people in this world, those capable and believing in everlasting and all forgiving love, and those believing in temporary and fleeting love(a sort of intense affection if you may). I think I stand somewhere in the middle of these two categories. I'm neither able of that unconditional love, nor am I such a bastard so as to be temporary in "love".

The term "I Love You" is thrown around a lot in our world. People use it as and when they like, I for one never see the point of saying it unless I actually feel it. Those three words are of monumental importance in a relationship, and the way people throw them around like a pack of Oreo's is quite comedic, and sad at the same time. The value of those three words has diminished somewhat, thanks to our liberal use of taking a feeling of even the slightest affection, or even lust for that matter, and branding it with the tag of "Love".

Somehow the poetic love all people speak of will be unable to survive in today's world of fleeting romances and quick affairs. Love is a just a relative term these days to describe a number of feeling ranging from affection to liking and from feelings to lust. In these confusing times, I'm sure Cupid is running out of ammunition. Maybe he just dropped a Love Potion Nuclear Warhead a few years back left us all to our own instincts. In that case, well played, nothing like undermining the importance of one of the most interesting feeling of humanity, to throw the world in chaos.

Seems John, Paul, George and Ringo weren't so right after all, All you need isn't love, you need looks and a fat paycheck to seal the deal.


P.S.> I bet 8/10 people reading this blog expected me to end it with that old cliche. Well you win.

The Greater scope of things.

We all seem to have a very weird escape mechanism when it comes to dealing with problems. Most people will never try and face any battle head-on if they can run away from it. We all keep thinking that one way to reduce the size of problems is to look at the problem in the "greater scope of things". This apparent inclination to slide problems to the side, saying they wont affect your life as a whole is nothing but a very subconscious escape mechanism.

We all decide that the problem isn't big enough to bother us later on, and it turns out most times we might be wrong. Everything that happens in our lives somehow or the other affects our life. Fine ill grant you one thing, they might not be monumental when we look at the "bigger picture", but then again, if we did have the ability to face each problem head-on then we would never really need to look at the bigger picture.

So what if the problem is a small thing?(small is a relative term). Each issue that remains unresolved will someday or other pop-up at the opportune moment. If we all had the higher thinking to look at each problem as a lesson to be learned we would all be much better off.

Shelving every small issue will finally make the shelf full till it breaks from the load, at that moment what you're looking at is the a bad mess of dusty and old problems which have now grown. Each issue in life teaches us how to handle the next problem that comes along. Its a sort of weird incremental terminology, how we all have to solve the smaller problems to be able to solve the bigger ones.

Ironically, if you look at the bigger picture, in the greater scope of things, all these lessons learned are valuable for our mental growth and strength. All I'm saying is, putting a small problem, seemingly insignificant in the "greater scope of things", is more harmful than beneficial in the exact same bigger picture of life.



P.S.> I hate mosquitoes, they bite and they itch. Two things I don't like. If I was granted one wish I would wish for their species to end. A horrific, itchy death to each mosquito who ever bit another living thing.

P.S.S.> Sorry for the random Post Script, but those little buggers are irritating.
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Now playing: Goo Goo Dolls - Here Is Gone
via FoxyTunes

The world needs to slow down.

I cleared my dues, put out the fires,
And set out on an empty road.

I kept the feeling, pulled the wires,
I kept on going without a load.

And so I came to gaze upon these times,
I wondered what went wrong.

How did we spend all our lives,
Why does everyone keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

As I journeyed along, I saw a tree,
It gave fruit and a shade to sleep,

It moved with life, but was never free,
Even it's fruits it wouldn't keep.

That was when I realized the simple truth,
I realized what went wrong.

In this freedom of our only youth,
We never stand, we keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

All of us never have a moment to lose,
We never take time to see a star.

Keeping time is our usual excuse,
We never look at life from afar.

There's more to life than constant motion,
We fail to appreciate each moment.

We keep getting lost in all this commotion,
And we keep waiting for the next event.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.



Edit: This song basically explains my message to the world. I believe in taking life at my own pace, while people around me keep rushing to places and appointments. Somehow I wanted to make this song to put life into perspective for them, all those people who rush in life and keep saying its so tough.
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Now playing: Nirvana - Lounge Act
via FoxyTunes

Breaking Up.

I though I lost you somewhere,
But you were never mine to lose.

I search for you everywhere,
For you its not that hard to choose.

I wanted to be all you need,
But you never wanted anything at all.

Now I know even I can bleed,
You didn't even flinch watching me fall.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

Everything I did, I did for you,
And you didn't even care.

I kept acting like a fool,
In a love like this it all seemed fair.

Now, you say you have to go,
And it tears me apart.

How can you ever know,
All the pain in my heart.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

You go on, somehow I'll heal,
I hope that I survive this,
One day I'm sure, I can again feel,
But I can still taste our last kiss.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.


Edit: I wrote this song in a bad mood actually. Sort of needed to make a break up song, to express my feelings if someone important in my life left me. Though I'm not much of a person to fall in love, I think I got the feelings that a number of other people would like to express into this song.
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Now playing: Incubus - Out From Under
via FoxyTunes

A Losing Fight / The Inner Evil.

They all say there's good in me,
Its the demons inside they fail to see.

I'm afraid they'll all get out,
But its all the things I cant live without.

Someday they'll all be free,
I don't know then, what will be left of me.

I mere shadow a living shell,
I drown slowly in my inner hell.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.

I keep losing this inner fight,
I stand tall as I cower in fright.

They tell me that I'm winning,
But all I wanna do is keep running.

The inner fight is what I cant escape,
What is now broken I cannot remake.

Everything fades, I'm down on my knee,
The inner evil is finally free.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.

I keep hoping that you stand by side,
I just wait for the turning of the tide.

I hope and pray that I may be wrong,
But they've been in me all along.

So as I'm dying alone,
I keep you safe from the inner me,
As I hang on they have grown,
Someday the demons is all you'll see.



I'm currently unable to convincingly name this song. I hold it very close to my heart since at a number of levels it explains the manifestation of my greatest fears. This song is essentially an explanation of my state of mind, my inner psychosis.

If anyone can help me name this, I'm open to suggestions.


P.S.> This song marks a landmark 10th original song written by me. Now if only someone would help me make these into proper music, then I can proudly say I have enough songs for a decent length album.

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Now playing: Poets Of The Fall - Fragile
via FoxyTunes