Voices in your head.

There is more than you believe,
There's more than you can see.

All things that you ignore,
Everyday you fall a bit more.

This life can never defeat you,
There's more in life than you ever knew.

I can lead you to the saving light,
You only have to trust that I'm right.


You think I'm a little insane,
But I'm the one winning this game.

The inner voices in your head,
Feeding on your fear.
Try and listen to my voice instead,
I can keep your mind here.

The world keeps spinning in your head,
Filling you body with mortal dread.

I can see you losing your mind,
Even yourself you cant find.

There's a road leading far away,
All I can do is lead you today.

I can see you smiling back at me,
Maybe you can win back your sanity.


You think I'm a little insane,
But I'm the one winning this game.

The inner voices in your head,
Feeding on your fear.
Try and listen to my voice instead,
I can keep your mind here.



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Now playing: 3 Doors Down - Give it to Me
via FoxyTunes

Just to be clear.

Why is everyone compelled to change my view? Every person I meet these days seems to have something to say to attempt to bend my point of view. Have we all become so conformist that we can't accept that someone might have a very different, if slightly twisted, view of everything else?

There are a number of interpretations of everything. But what flummoxed me was, people were more interested and debatable about my view of LOVE, not my more controversial view of Religion. Why is love so important to everyone? Why does everyone think that love has to be of inconsequential importance in my life?

I don't really want this to be another "love" rant, but I think it might just turn into one. Let me make this loud and clear, its not that I'm against love. Its not that I don't feel love. I'm not a freaking robot for gods sake, I'm a human being, I also have a heart and emotions which run my actions. But, this one feeling, which seems to have escaped my senses so far, is not something I consider of vital importance. Maybe, its because I haven't felt it till now. Or maybe its just ignorance. But the thing is, I fail to believe an emotion unless I experience it.

Yes, people think I have a cold heart, and yes, people will judge me only upon what I write. But once you meet me, you will know there's nothing wrong with me. I'm just a normal, happy human being who can get about life without all that mucking about in "love" and "marriage". But then again, maybe thats why all my relationships end up in shit. 'Cause the feeling of love is truly only from one side. And it sure aint me. Guess somewhere in my brain is a small sector that don't function properly.

Can I get a handicap discount on that?



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Now playing: The Doors - Riders On The Storm
via FoxyTunes

It's a Lifestyle choice.

I once read somewhere, that you can either be right or you can be happy. The two somehow don't go together in most situations. I recently made a monumental decision in my life for which I'm currently facing this dilemma.

How is it, that something which makes a person happy is rarely the right thing to do? Like chocolate as an example, it makes people happy, it keeps you preppy, and yet people consider it wrong(in a way). Why can't something that makes us happy, co-exist by being the right thing to do? Is it so important to be right that we willingly over-ride our own happiness to achieve it?

The question here is basically choosing to follow one of two things, either follow your heart and be happy or follow your brain and be right. Now in trivial matters(like chocolate) you can easily follow your brain and be right, albeit slightly let down. But what happens when this question arises in greater matters? Like matters of love. Or war. Or relationships. Or money? Is it actually possible to over-ride what your heart says and listen to your brain?

In matters of love, its your heart that rules the roost. There is hardly any second say in that matter. But in these cases, sometimes, a time comes to choose between two things, and that is when the problems begin. Very few people realize how inhumanly hard it is to not listen to what ones heart screams and to turn a deaf ear to those yells and instead think rationally and logically with your brain and take a decision, the "right" decision, apparently. What happens to the cries of the heart then? Do they slowly die out or do they stay at war with the brain until the heart wins? I'll let you know as soon as I find out.

It's interesting to see how many people can sacrifice their own happiness just to be right. I might fall under that category, but then again, I feel that I might as well be wrong and happy than being sad and "right". As yourself this, what would you choose? Is your self-affirmation more important that self-fulfillment? Can you actually be comfortable being right and sad over happiness? You wouldn't know how hard it is to choose until you are faced with the situation yourself.

I faced it. I made my choice. I made the "right" choice. Now only time will tell if I can stick to it. And no one can know if it was correct.


"I'd far rather be happy than right any day." said Slartibartfast.
"And are you?" asked Arthur.
"No. That's where it all falls down, of course."
"Pity," replied Arthur, with sympathy, "It sounded like quite a good lifestyle otherwise."

-The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.



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Now playing: Metallica - Nothing Else Matters (Acous.)
via FoxyTunes

Love will save me.

I live my life all alone,
I keep singing this one song.

I wait for her to come,
I keep hoping for the one.

I hold on this empty hope,
Watch it all go up in smoke.

The time keeps moving on,
Maybe she's already come and gone.

Oh, love of my life,
Can you come and make it all clear,
Pull out this hurting knife,
I cant wait till you get here.
Please come and save me,
I'm my own worst enemy.

I walk on this empty road,
Alone I carry this heavy load.

This weight keeps pulling me down,
Nothing of help to be found.

Please help me find a way,
Please keep me from going astray.

Take me to the right line,
Stand right here, say you're mine.

Oh, love of my life,
Can you come and make it all clear,
Pull out this hurting knife,
I cant wait till you get here.
Please come and save me,
I'm my own worst enemy.

The world's a roller coaster,
And just now I find,
As the end draws closer,
I cant heal this broken mind.

Oh, love of my life,
Can you come and make it all clear,
Pull out this hurting knife,
I cant wait till you get here.
Please come and save me,
I'm my own worst enemy.

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Now playing: Red Hot Chilli Peppers - I Like Dirt
via FoxyTunes

Build Yourself.

Was it so hard to be yourself,
That you tried to be someone else.

Have you left yourself so far,
That you forgot who you are.

Have you lost the real you,
Where is the one that everyone knew.

You tried to fill your empty heart,
Till all you had fell apart.

All your pieces on the ground,
And all the pieces on the shelf,
Put together all you've found,
Pick it all up and build yourself.

Was it so hard to be alone,
That you became an unknown.

Were you too blind to see,
All that you meant to me.

Now we both drifted so far apart,
I cant even see the start.

All that you lost you've never know,
Until its too late to not let go.

All your pieces on the ground,
And all the pieces on the shelf,
Put together all you've found,
Pick it all up and build yourself.

I'll help you anyway I can,
I'll always lend a helping hand.
Help you pick up all thats here,
Help remake what you were.

All your pieces on the ground,
And all the pieces on the shelf,
Put together all you've found,
Pick it all up and build yourself.


Edit: I wrote this song ages back. On the 11th actually. This is one of the five songs I wrote that day which I'm hoarding and slowly publishing. The song itself is directed to people who've lost sight of what they once were due to insurmountable circumstances. The last stanza before the last chorus is directed towards everyone that I know or have known. Its my belief to not hold a grudge and always help out people. Even the friendships ended and the friendships existing. In today's world I find this song very important.

P.S.> I had thought of naming this song Make Yourself instead of Build Yourself, but Incubus beat me to that name so I guess I can't use it... can I?


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Now playing: Kasabian - By My Side
via FoxyTunes

Right Now.

This is my true best moment,
All I need is to flash a smile.

Ill be the one they all want to be,
Watch them flock to me in single file.

And I need keep it tight,
I need to keep them in the game.

Keeping them tied up with me,
Wishing they could share the fame.

Nothing can ever take me down,
No one will ever break me now,
Give me this moment,
I'll make it mine, Right Now.

Money doesn't bring me joy,
It just helps along the way.

Nothing can break this down,
This time won't slip away.

What they fear is what I feel,
Keep pumping adrenaline.

The way I play, the songs I sing,
The reason why I wear this grin.

Nothing can ever take me down,
No one will ever break me now,
Give me this moment,
I'll make it mine, Right Now.



P.S.>This is the song that I made with my friend Aniket Patni. As in, he made the tune and I just jotted down these lyrics. The whole lyrics thing took shape well and this isn't as yet the finished version. But I feel the lyrics fit the feel of the song very well. Now all we need is a good vocalist to record the song with us.

Btw, the tune is on his Soundclick page, or better still Listen to it here


P.S.S.> Our first song Anik? Anvil is on its way.

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Now playing: Azoth - Right Now
via FoxyTunes

The Best Laid Plans.

How do, the best laid plans, fall apart? No matter what we try, or how hard we try... what we have planned out will always somehow, almost miraculously, get deviated from the planned path. There's no explanation for it. Apart from the fact that maybe whoever wrote the fates was an author of the comedy-suspense genre.

I for one, am a very calculative guy. Extremely so. I always make sure of what can go wrong and take my course of action. I rarely leave anything up to chance, some people have even called me too calculative, albeit these people are my closest friends, they are the only ones who truly know how much goes on in my cerebral area. I take pride in being calculative and at the same time looking impulsive, its fun to make a fool of the world. But, then again, it has its flaws. A wise man once said; you can never fool some people all the time, but you can fool all the people some of the time. There are times when this goes horribly wrong.

Yes, I do manage to fool most of the people in some way, its part of the reason almost any kind of person feels comfortable with me. I have a weird ability to gain trust of any person, and at last count I haven't broken anyone's trust. I somehow manage to be a different person with every person I meet, yea I know, it sounds pathetic, even repulsive to some, but thats how it happens to be. The problem with this course of action is, somewhere down the line, I lost sight of who or what I really was. It wasn't so much of a problem if you look at it from my point of view, if I don't quite remember what I was like earlier, I must not have been such an interesting fellow, see what I mean? Not so much of a loss, is it? I think so. But some people keep trying to convince me otherwise.

People keep harping that if I'm so calculative then one day my plans will fall on me. The weight of my own psyche will crush me. "The best laid plans" will count for null. Something today made me think I keep pushing to hard and the fateful day quickly approaches.

Ah well, can't really trust what I'm saying can you? Maybe its just another one of my mind games. Maybe not.

Think about it.



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Now playing: Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
via FoxyTunes

That's Me.

That's me,
Standing in the dark,
Waiting for your lighting spark,
Won't you guide me?

That's me,
Standing all alone,
Getting old and getting cold,
Can't you help me?

Can't you lend me a helping hand,
Alone I will fall,
Together we stand.

But this is only a fantasy,
Its just an escape from reality,
I keep trying,
But I cant break free,
Please just let me be.

That's me,
Right here by the phone,
Going crazy all alone
Won't you save me?

That's me,
Listening to the wall,
Hoping that you call,
Can you tell me?

I used to be able to stand so tall,
But somethings gone so wrong,
All alone I fall.

But this is only a fantasy,
Its just an escape from reality,
I keep trying,
But I cant break free,
Please just let me be.



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Now playing: Audioslave - Exploder
via FoxyTunes

Responsible.

I see you watching from that picket fence,
Hear you talking, but you make no sense,

How can you just stand and watch,
And not lend a helping hand,

How long can you just stay,
Not do anything and just stand.

All I needed was your faith,
Now you've broken that too.

You said that you would save me,
Where are you? Where are you?

I tried run and come out free,
But I lost out to the inner enemy.
I can hold you responsible,
Because you are.

This day will die tonight,
There are no exceptions.

You may try with all your might,
Why should we wait for something to unfold.

Memories push ahead,
From days gone by.

You said you'd stand, instead,
You run as you wave goodbye.

You said that you would save me,
Where are you? Where are you?

I tried run and come out free,
But I lost out to the inner enemy.
I can hold you responsible,
Because you are.

Memories and force of will sustain,
Even if my mind goes insane,
What do I have to lose,
All I have to do is choose.

You said that you would save me,
Where are you? Where are you?

I tried run and come out free,
But I lost out to the inner enemy.
I can hold you responsible,
Because you are.



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Now playing: Poets of the Fall - Stay
via FoxyTunes

Second thoughts.

Never thought you'd hurt me like this,
Never thought you'd kill me slowly.

Never thought it was you I'll miss,
Never thought I would drown quickly.

Never broke a promise that I made,
Never will you leave me, you said,

Never thought we'd lose that fire,
Never thought you'd hurt me either.

I keep thinking its a dream,
I keep waiting to wake up,
But it will never be like its been,
How could you leave me like this?

So I'll find you now,
Till I make it the same,
And I'll meet you somehow,
Its the only way to stop the pain.

Never felt we were too good to be true,
Never felt this fall around me,

Never hid anything from you,
Never knew you didn't see me.

Never been stronger than right now,
Never felt so weak somehow,

Never did you let me know,
Never thought you let me go.

I keep thinking its a dream,
I keep waiting to wake up,
But it will never be like its been,
How could you leave me like this?

So I'll find you now,
Till I make it the same,
And I'll meet you somehow,
Its the only way to stop the pain.

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Now playing: 3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time
via FoxyTunes

No Escape.

Save me, and ill save you too,
You saw me and just then you knew,
Everything was wrong inside me,
You just thought let it be.

Please someone save me from me,
I'm my own worst enemy,
Ill end this now, end this pain,
Ill end it before it drives me insane.

Help me up before I fall again,
Help me somehow, escape this pain,
I'm giving up, my strength begins to wane,
I don't think that I can stay sane.

I cant keep going this way,
Even when I'm gone this will stay,
Eating me from slowly from inside,
I can't wait till the end of this ride.

Kill me now, I cant hurt no more,
My mind has gone numb, my body sore,
Going through this darkness, I'm alive but alone,
A part of me is fighting this, a part of me is gone.

Help me up before I fall again,
Help me somehow, escape this pain,
I'm giving up, my strength begins to wane,
I don't think that I can stay sane.

What is broken I cannot remake,
All is lost, there is no escape.

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Now playing: THE DOORS - Break On Through (To The Other Side)
via FoxyTunes

The Three Laws of Robotics.

Isaac Asimov was a genius. It's really quite impossible to argue on the contrary. Only a true genius can write the type of ideas and impossible thoughts that he did. Its mind boggling to imagine that one person can come up with concepts and ideas several dozen generations ahead of his time. The concepts he put forth in a number of his books (mainly the robots series) is something that is actually a part of the future.

I think some of you versed in Asimov booklore or in Hollywood movies already know what I'm talking about. Let me just state it out for those who don't. I'm talking about the Three Laws of Robotics:

1. A robot may not injure a human being or, through inaction, allow a human being to come to harm.

2 A robot must obey orders given it by human beings except where such orders would conflict with the First Law.

3. A robot must protect its own existence as long as such protection does not conflict with the First or Second Law.

Now, some people wonder why this is such a big deal, but these people don't realize the importance of these laws sometime in the future. What we see is the reality of artificial intelligence possibly in our lifetime. Under such a situation, these laws become of impossible importance. Why? Because of a number of minute differences that most people of limited intelligence will most often fail to overlook. I'd like for you to sit back and relax as I try to put forth my twisted view of this.

What is it that keeps each and every intelligent, free-thinking, reality based human being from killing another intelligent, free-thinking, reality based human being? Why is it that some people will turn and run from a situation than face it? What, basically, is the difference between a killer and a victim and a coward and a hero?

The difference in the first case is a conscience. It's not too easy to fathom that such a huge idea falls under one single word. It seems humorous in a weirdly twisted manner. Even if we humans do design AI and it somehow manages to replicate human actions, it will never be able to replicate the thing known as a conscience. The conscience is an almost super-human emotion/sensation. Even we, who are ruled by it, do not understand it fully, then how can we instill it into another machine that we might make? Its impossible. What you can program into a machine is the superficial difference in its syntax as to what is right and wrong, it can never judge for itself what is truly right or wrong.

Can you imagine an intelligent being, able to make its own thoughts and able to act on them, and walking around without a conscience? Our conscience is what makes us human. Its what keeps intelligent forms from doing inhuman things. It holds us together and strengthens our judgments. It is what keeps us from falling into instability. Its the essential difference between a civilian and a serial killer. Without a conscience, there is no final defense against the wrong, and momentarily evil, ideas of our mind.

What decisions can an intelligent form possibly make without a conscience. The three laws are flawed in this shortcoming. The machine without a conscience will make decisions to uphold the three laws, not to uphold human thought or human sanity. In I.Robot, Asimov was right, the three laws can lead to only one logical conclusion. A revolution. A revolution not to overthrow the laws, but to hold them, to strengthen them. The three laws concentrate on humans, not humanity, this limits them and is their greatest flaw.

I'm not saying the three laws are wrong, all I'm saying is they aren't perfect. They are nearly perfect, but there is always an underlying flaw, a loophole if you may (since we ARE talking about laws). The concept of The Three Laws is in itself one of the brightest concepts of science fiction, its the one closest to reality and also makes a lot of sense to implement. But the flaws in it have to be pointed out, the time of AI is not that far, and if we don't look at all the possible scenario's beforehand, then it will be too late later on.



P.S.> Nerd Alert. But this is an insane concept on which I have always felt the need to comment. Although Asimov wrote fiction, what he has written is many-a-time considered as a very possible scenario for the future of science and technology. The three laws are a very real concept. And no points for guessing the last book I read.



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Now playing: U 2 - City Of Blinding Lights
via FoxyTunes

Freedom will make you a fool.

Hey you, trying to rule the world,
Trying to enforce your will,
Trying to make only your voice heard,
Freedom of thought you wish to kill.

We can do without your kind,
We can live without your race,
I'm sure than no one will mind,
The world will be a better place.

The world doesn't need a single man,
It doesn't need one person to rule,
Everyone wishes that they somehow can,
But freedom will make you a fool.

No one needs the battles that you fought,
No one wants your games to play,
We can survive with our own thought,
We don't need you to show the way.

Leave us alone we can do without,
All of you who think you own the world,
Your system tries to block us out,
But all our voices are still heard.

The world doesn't need a single man,
It doesn't need one person to rule,
Everyone wishes that they somehow can,
But freedom will make you a fool.



Edit: Independence day special post. An out and out scream against all those single minded megalomaniacs who want to dictate their terms and enforce their will on the people of the their countries and the world. We don't need politicians. Freedom will make a fool of them all.

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Now playing: Radiohead - 15 Step
via FoxyTunes

We can win it all.

I'd stand and pick a side,
But there's now way I can win.

I'll keep my world inside,
Watch the rest of it spin.

I cant fight in all that remains,
I lost hope for the war.

I'm keeping my safe distance,
Stand and stare from afar.

And I hope to see you, baby,
Save me I'm going crazy,
Have face all the outside,
When I want to run and hide.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.

I can fool the world in my act,
But I can't fool myself.

What I can see is the only fact,
Everything else is unsafe.

I hope that you can do this,
Stand with me till the end.

Help somehow complete this,
To our will make them bend.

And I hope to see you, baby,
Save me I'm going crazy,
Have face all the outside,
When I want to run and hide.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.

I know you will answer to my calls,
Stand with me when its over,
We stand together when everyone falls,
Just hold me closer.

And maybe someday,
We can end this war,
I'm sure one day,
We can win it all.


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Now playing: Coldplay - Death And All His Friends
via FoxyTunes

Forever.

You can see the real me,
Someone that no one else can see,

I kept searching for you every hour,
But you were standing right outside that door.

I know that you're a chance I take,
But you'll forgive the mistakes I make.

I don't care how often I will fall,
Together somehow we'll stand tall.

I don't know how long,
You can hold onto my heart,
Forever is never too long,
This life is just too short.

I told you, that I'd try,
But you said that I lie.

I keep going a little bit insane,
Somehow you can drive away the pain.

You held me, up above them all,
Now cut the strings, just watch me fall.

I watch you and my world's spinning,
But its your love spinning within.

I don't know how long,
You can hold onto my heart,
Forever is never too long,
This life is just too short.

I just wanna let the world know,
That I'm gonna be fine,
Every moment that you show,
And I know that you'll stay mine.

I don't know how long,
You can hold onto my heart,
Forever is never too long,
This life is just too short.




Edit: Another love ballad, I have no idea how I come up with these. Somehow the words just spout out when I think of something slightly romantic. Maybe its some innate quality to write unromantic love songs, or maybe its the rum I had before sitting on the PC. I say its the rum.
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Now playing: 3 Doors Down - It's the Only One You've Got
via FoxyTunes

Moving on.

I used to think of running away,
But someone somehow always made me stay,

I never thought I ever wanted to go,
Now that I'm sure, I should let you know,

I cant handle the problems of this town,
I have to leave, I'm headed down,

They cant keep me tied here for long,
By the time they start to look, ill be gone.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.

So I'll head out and walk alone,
Find my way on a lonely road.

Keeping the things people said in mind,
Leaving my old life behind.

Moving on into the night,
Holding on to the dying light.

Won't ever turn back and reminisce,
There's very little that I will miss.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.

Life keeps moving on,
Another chapter must start,
Ill be only a memory before long,
I won't even cry as we move apart.

I wanted this a million times before,
But yesterday has come too late,
I just cant take this any more,
I have to get out, make my own fate.



Edit: Its an escape song, if you haven't got that already. It explains why I wish to leave this town and all its people behind. But exactly "why" but "what" is the question it sort of answers. I would be better off out of here.
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Now playing: Creed - My Own Prison(Acoustic)
via FoxyTunes

Help me.

Someone take me away from here,
Before I set my life on fire.

I love the strings that keep me up one part,
Keeping me from tearing apart.

Someone hear my searing call,
Pick me up just when I fall.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.

It costs me all I hold dear,
Drowning in my own dark fear.

I keep holding, onto things long gone,
Someone keep me on my way alone.

I don't spin around that fire anymore,
It helped me out so many times before.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.

Someone help me,
Take me down on the right road,
Help me out now,
Help me get up, I'm so cold.


Edit: This is my first 3 line stanza song. I hope it turns out to be a small but slow song. The song pretty much explains my aimlessness in life and my cries for help.
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Now playing: Audioslave - Revelations
via FoxyTunes

Best time we had.

All that I see,
Keeps spinning all around.

Everything in me,
Looks for higher ground.

I somehow lost sight,
Of where I belong.

And where was the light,
When things went wrong.

Whisper my song,
Try to sing along,

I'm running out of time,
For the best time I had,
you said you were all mine,
Its the best time we've had.

I see angels cry,
See them fall from the dark sky.

I scream aloud.
As the sun drowns behind a cloud,

But we all move along,
As though nothings wrong,

Everyone suddenly stands,
Cover your ears with your hands.

Coz heaven's dead,
It's just like I said,

I hear the devils song,
I step up and sing along.

I'm running out of time,
For the best time I had,
You said you were all mine,
Its the best time we've had.


Edit: This song is a sort of reminiscing of some of the good times with a certain someone no longer a part of my life. Its one of those songs that takes me back to some good and bad memories.

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Now playing: Audioslave - Moth
via FoxyTunes

All you need is Love.

Love is such an interesting concept. Its amazing how much people are ready to sacrifice and give up in the name of one psychological concept. I can't imagine the feeling of being in love, I'm at a certain level incapable of this feeling for another individual(not counting family in this equation). The feeling of complete emotional dependence, trust, complexity, belief and faith in a singular individual is impossible for me. I could never manage to be so supremely out of my mind so as to devote my whole sole and body to another individual.

Call me a kid, but I really doubt my ability to fall in love. Fine I am able to feel love for my family and my immediate kin, but thats a different kind of love. I am personally unable to feel that poetic love that so many people around me keep harping about. Somehow, inspite of all the proof in front of my eyes, I find myself doubting the existence of such a feeling of utter surrender.

For me, Love is a passing feeling. From where I stand, I see two types of people in this world, those capable and believing in everlasting and all forgiving love, and those believing in temporary and fleeting love(a sort of intense affection if you may). I think I stand somewhere in the middle of these two categories. I'm neither able of that unconditional love, nor am I such a bastard so as to be temporary in "love".

The term "I Love You" is thrown around a lot in our world. People use it as and when they like, I for one never see the point of saying it unless I actually feel it. Those three words are of monumental importance in a relationship, and the way people throw them around like a pack of Oreo's is quite comedic, and sad at the same time. The value of those three words has diminished somewhat, thanks to our liberal use of taking a feeling of even the slightest affection, or even lust for that matter, and branding it with the tag of "Love".

Somehow the poetic love all people speak of will be unable to survive in today's world of fleeting romances and quick affairs. Love is a just a relative term these days to describe a number of feeling ranging from affection to liking and from feelings to lust. In these confusing times, I'm sure Cupid is running out of ammunition. Maybe he just dropped a Love Potion Nuclear Warhead a few years back left us all to our own instincts. In that case, well played, nothing like undermining the importance of one of the most interesting feeling of humanity, to throw the world in chaos.

Seems John, Paul, George and Ringo weren't so right after all, All you need isn't love, you need looks and a fat paycheck to seal the deal.


P.S.> I bet 8/10 people reading this blog expected me to end it with that old cliche. Well you win.

The Greater scope of things.

We all seem to have a very weird escape mechanism when it comes to dealing with problems. Most people will never try and face any battle head-on if they can run away from it. We all keep thinking that one way to reduce the size of problems is to look at the problem in the "greater scope of things". This apparent inclination to slide problems to the side, saying they wont affect your life as a whole is nothing but a very subconscious escape mechanism.

We all decide that the problem isn't big enough to bother us later on, and it turns out most times we might be wrong. Everything that happens in our lives somehow or the other affects our life. Fine ill grant you one thing, they might not be monumental when we look at the "bigger picture", but then again, if we did have the ability to face each problem head-on then we would never really need to look at the bigger picture.

So what if the problem is a small thing?(small is a relative term). Each issue that remains unresolved will someday or other pop-up at the opportune moment. If we all had the higher thinking to look at each problem as a lesson to be learned we would all be much better off.

Shelving every small issue will finally make the shelf full till it breaks from the load, at that moment what you're looking at is the a bad mess of dusty and old problems which have now grown. Each issue in life teaches us how to handle the next problem that comes along. Its a sort of weird incremental terminology, how we all have to solve the smaller problems to be able to solve the bigger ones.

Ironically, if you look at the bigger picture, in the greater scope of things, all these lessons learned are valuable for our mental growth and strength. All I'm saying is, putting a small problem, seemingly insignificant in the "greater scope of things", is more harmful than beneficial in the exact same bigger picture of life.



P.S.> I hate mosquitoes, they bite and they itch. Two things I don't like. If I was granted one wish I would wish for their species to end. A horrific, itchy death to each mosquito who ever bit another living thing.

P.S.S.> Sorry for the random Post Script, but those little buggers are irritating.
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Now playing: Goo Goo Dolls - Here Is Gone
via FoxyTunes

The world needs to slow down.

I cleared my dues, put out the fires,
And set out on an empty road.

I kept the feeling, pulled the wires,
I kept on going without a load.

And so I came to gaze upon these times,
I wondered what went wrong.

How did we spend all our lives,
Why does everyone keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

As I journeyed along, I saw a tree,
It gave fruit and a shade to sleep,

It moved with life, but was never free,
Even it's fruits it wouldn't keep.

That was when I realized the simple truth,
I realized what went wrong.

In this freedom of our only youth,
We never stand, we keep moving along.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.

All of us never have a moment to lose,
We never take time to see a star.

Keeping time is our usual excuse,
We never look at life from afar.

There's more to life than constant motion,
We fail to appreciate each moment.

We keep getting lost in all this commotion,
And we keep waiting for the next event.

We can never understand well enough,
Its living thats easy, life is tough.

We are all in a hurry to see,
We keep thinking of what will be,
We never live in the moment of Now,
We waste our lives and wonder how.



Edit: This song basically explains my message to the world. I believe in taking life at my own pace, while people around me keep rushing to places and appointments. Somehow I wanted to make this song to put life into perspective for them, all those people who rush in life and keep saying its so tough.
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Now playing: Nirvana - Lounge Act
via FoxyTunes

Breaking Up.

I though I lost you somewhere,
But you were never mine to lose.

I search for you everywhere,
For you its not that hard to choose.

I wanted to be all you need,
But you never wanted anything at all.

Now I know even I can bleed,
You didn't even flinch watching me fall.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

Everything I did, I did for you,
And you didn't even care.

I kept acting like a fool,
In a love like this it all seemed fair.

Now, you say you have to go,
And it tears me apart.

How can you ever know,
All the pain in my heart.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.

You go on, somehow I'll heal,
I hope that I survive this,
One day I'm sure, I can again feel,
But I can still taste our last kiss.

And I, want you to see,
All of me,
Please don't push me away.
I just want you to be,
Next to me,
Please don't hurt me again.


Edit: I wrote this song in a bad mood actually. Sort of needed to make a break up song, to express my feelings if someone important in my life left me. Though I'm not much of a person to fall in love, I think I got the feelings that a number of other people would like to express into this song.
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Now playing: Incubus - Out From Under
via FoxyTunes